Then one evening, SHE WENT THERE. She pissed me off that much! I was ready to unleash, but suddenly, grace swooped in and a voice that felt familiar asked, “Do you want to go there?” I did not.
So what did I do in order to refrain from going crazy and gain much-needed peace?
I turned to another F word: Forgiveness.
FORGIVENESS IS EXTREMELY DIFFICULT, especially when you feel annoyed, angry, disrespected or betrayed. It felt unfair to forgive when I didn’t do anything wrong, but I realized that
it takes time to get to a place of forgiveness AND there are many layers to true forgiveness.
My road to forgiveness was not easy, but I got there. Here’s my abridged version of how it went down:
First, I felt angry. I had to silence the confident woman inside while this person got to be mean. I vented and fumed for months until I left the studio for good.
Second, I cried. I cried for the little girl in me that felt bullied and mistreated. I also cried because I contributed to the situation when I let her stuff annoy me to my core.
It took a total of two years to get the bad juju out my mind, body, and conscience. Once I felt ready, I sat on my sofa, took a breath, and said,
“I FORGIVE YOU.”
Whew. It was out. Holding onto the past wasn’t worth my time. I was missing out on being fully present with the people in my life who truly mattered. I finally felt relief. I felt FREE.
Forgiveness is certainly freeing, but it is a process. It’s also totally doable. Forgiveness is a key ingredient to honing your recipe on Getting Clear, Getting Powerful and Going Strong. Here’s my ask:
If there is someone you could say “I forgive you” to, who would you forgive?
If you feel up to it, could you say to him/her/them, “I forgive you.”
So, try using the F word. There’s absolutely no word quite like it.