I thought I knew. I knew that I was a coach and a mother (there were other identity words, but those were my big ones) AND I thought that in 2018 I would emerge as a MAJOR entrepreneur. However, after consulting with a dear spiritual teacher, I learned that the growing entrepreneur thing was not in the cards for me in 2018…that would come much later. I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO BE CLOSE TO OPRAH STATUS THIS YEAR, WTF?!!!!!!!
Forgive my postpartum hormones. I was pissed (click here to view my first video message of the new year).
Growing my business to incredible heights in 2018 WAS SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN BECAUSE I WILLED IT. I did all the visioning and affirmations and foundation-building that the experts said I should do to manifest my career success. So when I confirmed that the Divine’s master plan was to NOT go into Coach Shanita OVERDRIVE, I felt lost. As a result, I had an emotional meltdown.
You might be wondering why I think the teacher is right. Don’t I have the power to change my fate? I certainly do, but her offering was in complete alignment with what I felt in my gut all along about being a business-superstar this year-RESISTANCE. I felt resistance, but was afraid to admit it to myself. I knew–I absolutely knew deep down inside that the level of “success” that I was dreaming of wouldn’t come into fruition this year due to my other priorities and commitments. I would have to wait (and would also have to redefine what “success” meant to me).
Who the heck am I?
I sulked in sadness until I couldn’t sulk no more. I decided that I’d invest in a quest to figure out who I am this year. I am still evolving, so it’s not a one and done kind of task, but I can start somewhere.So, as I begin to discover my new self truths via this question, I will turn it over to you:
Who do you think you are?
- Do you identify with a set of labels? If so, do those labels sit well with you?
- Do you forgo labels?
- Do you embrace not having a concrete answer?
- Do you answer this question one day at a time because it’s still unfolding for you?
- Do you not know?